I will be ordained April 2 and it is driving me nuts. I told one person it is kind of "introvert hell": an entire event centered around people looking at, and thinking and talking about, me as a person. ACK! Point me to the coping mechanisms.
I am generally doing ok. I decided for myself that it would be a good enough ordination, not a perfect ordination, and that has helped me.
I'm joining this beaurocracy of a denomination late enough in my life, and I'm enough of a GenXer, to have mixed feelings about the whole thing. But I was chatting with M yesterday and he said, "You know, I know as an INFP everything that happens to you tends to have about this much distance" (and he got right up close to my face) "but you know, you're also getting ordained as an openly gay man for those like your Catholic brothers who cannot."
So, that's true. I hadn't thought of that. I may in fact wear my rainbow stole, because of that.
I do know that tension is in my body. I need like a constant massage person to beat the crunchies out of my shoulders!